Well, HAPPY SUNDAY! Lol!!! It has been a bit since I ranted or raved about something...sorry. This has been a pretty interesting and down weekend for me. Friday my boys went to a lock in at our church from 7pm that evening to 7am Saturday morning. As we ALL know, my SSG and I do NOT live together, so ANY time I can emmerse myself within him is very special and happy times. SO, when I mentioned the wonderful time we could spend( I got off work Friday at 12pm) together...he HAD PLANS!!!???!!! Okay, pardon me but UGH??!!! Can we say, I was NOT HAPPY to hear this?? So, I spent a very LONELY Friday night at home playing "SL" on FB, and tweeting( I LOVE ALL OF MY FB, SL, & Twitter Friends!! ). Went to work open to close Saturday, and once off work had to take my teens and the neighbor's daughter to a Masquerade 16th Birthday Party for a mutual friend of theirs...the good thing? I took them, so the neighbor's picked them up. AGAIN, I sat at home BY MYSELF, while my sweet little SSG was at his house. STILL NOT HAPPY. So, am I asking too much out of my boyfriend of OVER a YEAR??? I don't think soooo! When I hint around that maybe he is finding ways to further pre-occupy his time which will allow us LESS time together, he says he's not, but looking for job security once he's out of the Army(unsure at this time if he's wanting to re-enlist), and things that will allow him more income for US...that's GREEEAAAAATTTTTTT...but why am I suffering...or am I being SELFISH???!!! If we lived together(he asked me to move in and I declined...), it wouldn't be a huge deal because no matter what, at the end of our workdays we would see each other, BUT when you live separately, you want to GRAB what few moments you can have together. So today I am off, he is at work, and TOMORROW we are BOTH OFF....do we have plans??? I do not know, I am afraid to ask, and afraid to assume, because I do not like dissappointment. It would be nice to know what...or if anything is planned for tomorrow, BUT then again...GUILT TRIPS are sometimes needed in a relationship when one partner is feeling ignored or unappreciated. AGAIN....AM I BEING SELFISH??? I feel in some ways I may be, but then again, NO I DON'T! I know, oh WHOA AS ME...poor little girlfriend, I should appreciate what I have...and I DO, I just would really like to see more of him, then just the time he gets off work, stays at my house after work, only for me to get up and have to leave for work, and he leaves and goes home... :(
I want QT(Quality Time), spending the day together, going to a park, movies, playing putt putt....I don't think that is too much to want or ask for. I always fear that he will become complacent, and I think without realizing it, he is...he's forgetting the little things you need to do to keep the relationship in mode, or going. I take him lunch when he's at work if I can, I leave him little notes...he needs or should maybe try to take more initiative as well..BUT....HOW can I get him to do that without sounding like a complete brat? GEEZ!!!!! Soooooooooooo much of a headache creator I am. I think I may give myself one...lol.
I love him to pieces, BUT somedays I just want to SMACK him!!! Hahaha...I guess I will just have to wait and see what tomorrow entails.....
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